jacobkelley

im emo now
and sarah isnt answering her phone

it seems that whenever my dad talks to my mom about it
he talks about how im not doing something the way he wants
or hes "tired of my shit" and how he wont pay for me to go to college if i "dont get my act together" hes always so fucking disappointed in me.
and i try to work harder so i can impress him and make him proud
but when i work harder, he'll expect more. and when i dont fulfill his new requirements
hes disappointed in me again.
i just cant make my dad happy
my mom was just talking to me about what he was talking to her about
like "jacob isnt getting that work done fast enough, hes had those CD's for 2 weeks and all he does is talk on aim"
when really i have been working, but he just sees me talking on aim
he takes everythign out of context.
he always says that i dont work hard enough in school
maybe he should go through the shit kids have to go through
esp. in junior year, he would be suprised that i havent just killed myself.
but if i did, he would be disappointed that i "took the easy way out"
he never takes the time to evaluate situations, which is suprising
because he is the adult, and adults should know to get all the information
before the start shit, and making their kids feel inadequate.
so now here i am, a hermit in my bedroom
doing what he wants me to do, so that i can think im making him happy
so that i can think that im making him proud
when really he's just going to find something else to be "disappointed" by.

hello all
well something new actually happened in my perfunctory (SP?) life.
hm, on friday sarah and i bought some CDs. i bought "tell all your frinds" which is the first taking back sunday cd. and "three cheers for sweet revenge" which is the newest my chemical romance CD.
and i bought sarah the garden state soundtrack. and it has some pretty good songs, so i ripped it to my comp. because she left it here.
after that, we watched part of garden state, cause her mom picked her up early.
it it was good, because it wasnt what i normally do, which its booooooring, seeing a movie with the same people=no
latly mom has been watching everybody's kids. its like a a damn day care center here. It's annoying, toddlers running around and babies crying. my mom dosent know how to say "no" to people, unless of course, they live in the same house as she does.
anyways, thats all


jake

you know
people tell me that i dont update often
but nothing interesting ever happens to me
so what is there to update to me about
"well today i went to school,then i went home,did hw, talking online for awhile, ate dinner, talked online, and went to bed"
now would you want to read tath everyday? no
but today i went to a car wash for drama
they said they would give me some cocaine
but they never did :( lol
do there i was, wet, tired, and cocaine-less after my car wash
then i went to my friends house, and we worked on our research paper.
which is ALMOST OVER!!!
fuck yeah, and fuck ms kihei
finals, then no school
then my extremely rushed and busy summer
tomorrow= i see sarah
didnt at all this weekend
but she was having fun in NY, so its ok
thats all folks

so today
i found out that my closet to being my best friend is going to move back to cali
and this made me cry on the inside
but i have other friends to hang out with
but its never easy to watch a friend leave
but i could visit him and stuff right?
right
and hes all like "omg omg im going back to cali omg omg"
and im just standing next to him like "..yeah..good for you"
damn, im emo
anyways
i had my first essay today
it was easy
that is good
hopefully the rest are like that
except for english, cause its a research paper, which i am currently in the process of getting information for.
and my teacher is an evil robot, and she has driven me so crazy
that i now hear her voice in the back of my head
saying "you're not working hard enough jacob come on come on!"
i couldnt relax last night cause ms. Kihei was constantly badgering me in the back of my mind.
it sucked to say the least.
fuck junior year, all you sophmores, brace yourselves for the worst.

damn livejournal and their oh so trendy Comic sans font
i hate this font
but i cant change it
someone help me!
i went to the little customize font thing
but it didnt work
so im stuck with this aggravating font
anyways, nothing much going on, we have essays this week
and that sucks
but it wont be too hard
school ends soon
which means that my totally busy summer starts
thats a little yay
but sarah, you're going to new york this week
have fun
and ill miss you
but have fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun
bye all

hey, im just doing online quizes, so i thought i would post them


You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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psh
im depressed (what else is new)
do you ever get those feelings? like you know something is going to happen, you just dont know when.
im having one of those
my grandpa is dying, and i have this feeling that hes finally going to pass soon.
it sucks
im going to be a paulbearer (did i spell that right?)
but it'll be an honor to deliver my grandfather to his final resting place.
alright, thats all i wanted to say
later

Have You Ever...
(n) been drunk?
(y) been high?
(y) kissed a member of the opposite sex?
(n) kissed a member of the same sex?
(n) crashed a friend's car?
(y) been to japan?
(y) ridden in a taxi?
(y) lost someone clothes?
(n) liked a friends ex-lover?
(y) been in love?<--does it even exsist anymore
(y) been dumped?<--too many times
(y) shoplifted?
(y) kayaked?
(n) been fired?
(y) snuck in somewhere?
(y) been in a fist fight?
(n) snuck out of my parent's house?
(y) been called weird?
(n) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex?
(yyyyyyyyyyyyyy) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
(n) been arrested?
(y) made out with a stranger?
(n) stole something from your job?
(n) gone on a blind date?
(y) lied to a friend?
(y) had a crush on a teacher?
(n) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans?
(y) been to europe?
(n) skipped school?
(n) slept with a co-worker?
(n) been married?
(n) got divorced?
(n) had children?
(n) seen someone die?
(n) been to africa?
(y) had a crush on one of your greatest journal friends?
(y) slapped someone you loved?
(y) driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball?
(n) been to canada?
(y) been to mexico?
(y) been on a plane?
(y) seen the rocky horror picture show?
(y) thrown up in a bar?
(yyyyyyy) purposely set a part of myself on fire?
(y) eaten sushi?
(y) been snowboarding?
(y) met someone in person from the internet?
(y) been to a nude beach?
(n) had real feelings for someone you knew only online?
(y) been in an abusive relationship?
(n) been pregnant?
(y) lost a child?<---my close friend is my child
(n) gone to college?
(n) graduated college?
(y) done hard drugs?
(y) taken painkillers?
(yyyyyyy) love someone or miss someone right now?
(y) been out of state?
(n) told your parents you hated them?
(n) faked being drunk?
(n) dropped out of school?
(n) crowd surfed?
(n) met someone famous?
(n) told a member of the same sex you had a crush on them?
(y) lied to get out of trouble?
(n) thrown up from drinking?
Current Mood: sure, why not
psychological jukebox: All Ive got --THE USED!!!

I've found my theme song, and ironically enough, it's by the used.


From the way that you acted
To the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my time
And now it's sad cause all I missed
Wasn't that good to begin with
And now I've started you begging
Saying things that you don't mean
It isn't worth my time
A line's a dime a million times
And I'm about to see all of them


Goodbye to you [Goodbye to you]
You're taking up my time

You call my name when I wake up
To see things go your way
I'm coughing up my time
Each drag's a drop of blood a grain
A minute of my life
It's all I've got just to stay down
Why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all that�s mine
Each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine

Goodbye to you [Goodbye to you]
You're taking up my time

'im about to see a million things
I thought I'd never see before and I
I�m about to do all the things I dreamed of
And I
don't even miss you at all

Goodbye to you [Goodbye to you]
You're taking up my time

- pick 20 of your favorite musicians/bands
- see who can guess your favorite song from each

1-taking back sunday
2- dashboard confessional
3-massive attack
4-the used
5-the beatles
6-chevelle
7-blink 182
8- coheed and cambria
9- eric clapton
10- my chemical romance
11- senses fail
12- sugarcult
13- story of the year
damn, i only have 13, work with that
jake

hey, well im back from my spring break cruise. and it was fun.
we went to some place in haiti (why we would go to haiti, i dont know)
then we when to jamacia
where i bought a pipe, and some weird ass jamaican lighter (because my friend said i had to)
then the caymans ( where the word "splooge" came into existance)
then we went to cazumel (i dont know if i spelled it right, but its in mexico, so i dont care ;) j/k)
i have a whole bunch of inside jokes that absolutly no one will understand.
and during school i will more than likly recite bits from this comedy bit, it was pablo fransico acting out a comercial for aftershaved for mens testicles.

"when you're a male dances like me, you need to shave your wavos
and thats why i use WAVOS SPLASH YOU SEXY MOTHER FUCKER"

so my friends and i would recite that at random. like we were all in a elevator, and there were a whole bunch of old people, and in unison, we all go "wavo splash you sexy mother fucker" and grab our nuts.

and there are a whole bunch of other ones that i wont say, cause it will take a long time.

but i had a looooooot of fun (pone-zor)

sometimes you cant help but feel crushed on the inside

this seemed interesting

What's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does: not really

What song are you listening to?: "nothing else matters" metallica

How loud do you sneeze?: it depends, cause i can control the volume, like if im outdoors, im like "fuck it" and its really loud, but in the class is like "stealth sneeze"

Do you like your handwriting?: No

Ugliest color you've ever seen?: who cares? honestly??

Does having matching socks matter to you?: no

If you were in band, what would you call it?: never know best

Last time you were on a plane?: 1 year 7 months (i was coming back from japan)

How big is your TV?: 27, i think

How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2

sex.. good or bad?: ill let you know

Lamest pick-up line ever?: where do i start?
1- is there a mirror in your pocket? cause i can see myself in your pants
2- are you an astronaut? cause your ass is out of this world
3- im like the stock market- when im up, everyones happy
and the classic is it hot in here, or is it just you?

Dumbest song ever?: i dunno, let me go look at my sister's cds

Worst way to die?: drowning while large black men rape the dying person in the ass, and at the same time a giant ostrich is shitting on you.

Who's the funniest comedian?: thats a hard one......i dont know, i like a lot of comedians

Ever been in a car accident?: yeah, it was in front of alleys house ;)

Ever had braces?: yes

Do you know HTML?: a bit

What's the most useless class in school?: math past algebra 1

Something you're allergic to?: sulfur

Something you wish would die?: whatever feels like dying

current clothing: shirt, pants

current mood: meh. whatever.

current taste: saliva?

current hair: hair?

current annoyance: nothing really

current smell: air

current thing you ought to be doing: homework i guess

current jewelry: some necklace i picked up in jamaica

current book: talk to my english teacher, she'll know what book im reading

current refreshment: a coke pretty soon. damn! all we have is root beer

current worry: its all good mon

current crush:

current longing: none

current music: "let it happen" MXPX

current wish: i dont wish anymore

current lyric in your head: none

current makeup: nothing.

current undergarments: i dont wear undergarments

current regret: none

current desktop picture: tanks, driving down a road in afganistan

current plans for tonight/weekend: chilling with frined

current cuss word du jour: whatever

current disappointment: none

current amusement: none

current IM/person you're talking to: no one

current love: any girl that shows me the tiniest bit of attention

current obsession: *see above*

current avoidance: letting people know about my "current love" ?

current thing or things on your wall: pictures and stuff

current favorite book: the complete tales of Edgar Allan Poe

current favorite movie: anything that has "the matrix" in it

[Your Favorite]
Movie?: anything matrix

Band?: too many

Song?: it changes from week to week

Person?: none

Solo Artist?: yoyoma

Sex Position?: hmmm

Food?: chimichanga, or pizza

Pepsi?:regualar

Animal?: any type of cat

Type of Clothing?: shirts, blue jeans

CD?: too many

Subject in School?: i dunno

TV Show?: none

that was interesting

Current Mood: whatever

Current Music: middlename (live) - MXPx

im going on a online quiz frenzy


GREEN


??Which colour of Death is yours??
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the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.


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dude, well
again nothing has happened
but i did learn something interesting
did you know that the movie "shall we dance" was originally a japanese movie
well i didnt
it was suprizing
but then again
those japs think of everything.
anyways
later

hey dudes, sorry i havent updated in a long time
kinda forgot i had this
buyt suprizingly enough
nothing happened
so its not like you guys missed anything
oh wait
a few days ago, i realized
that i;ve given up my entire social life
to my church
well, not really
just a lot of it
anyways
later

argh, this sunday is boring.
there are old friends here, visiting from Virginia
but the dude person is watching football, and i think football is boring
but it hasnt exactly been pleasent
because the mom thinks that she runs everything
and my mom is afraid of her i think, and she is always on her toes when shes here
and it annoys me
anyways, im bored
think ill call someone

so, i just got back from my little band thingy. my church has a band and i play in it, and we had a little show. it was alright, we played well, everyone liked it. and thats all that really happened today.
tomorrow is a packed with adventure, we have people visiting us from virginia. so tomorrow we are going to the everglades tomorrow, then the gals get to go shopping, while the boy here and i go to see "house to flying daggers" with some of my dawgs yo.

dude, i just had a stupid moment
ok so for the longest time i thought that noone was updating on their journals
and i was like "this sucks"
but i finally put two and two together
and got 22
and i also figured out that i need to log in to read all you guys' posts
cause you're weird and protect everything ;)
its ok, i still love you
anyways, today was kind of cold
in the morning it was pretty bad
but it was standable during lunch
well, i thought it was
but my pectorial muscles (oh shit vocab vocab!) didnt
cause they were shivering like crazy
too bad noone had any chocolate milk
cause my pecs could have shaken it for them
lol
and thats about it